✰ Listen to her secrets
Call her first
Lable her as yours,
Understand her feelings,
tell her she's gorgeous.♥
write her a song...
never imagine life without her.
kiss her in the rain.
hold her hand all the time
[give her love letters.]
be her escape.
give her hugs and kisses.
show her off to your friends.
treat her like a star.
tell her she's amazing.
dream about her.
say she has the key to your heart.
watch her walk home so she's safe.
kiss her on the forehead.
tell her she's right.
stay together forever and let love last.♥
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Frustration. What is love anyways?
He doesn't love me. Or maybe he does. Maybe he's just not in love? I don't know what the he'll is going on. I just feel like I'm living a lie all of a sudden. I'm depressed. And when I'm depressed, I don't eat. Better get ready to welcome skinny bitch back! And I don't know why the last few posts have seemed kinda like I'm talking to my babe because I know damn sure that if he can't think to text me then I know he don't have time for my blog either. Sorry if I'm just rambling. These are just random thoughts that are running out as I'm typing. I love the boy to death. I know I do. He's my one, the one. Am I his? Like for real? I need to know these things. I want him to chase after me to keep me from leaving. I want him to prove to me he wants me to stay. Is that really too much to ask for? If so I'm sorry. I guess I'll end up in life alone.
Well I can't even read the keyboard right now so I'm gonna get off this post. I'll post tomorrow perhaps.
NotSoAverageGirl
Well I can't even read the keyboard right now so I'm gonna get off this post. I'll post tomorrow perhaps.
NotSoAverageGirl
Thursday, June 16, 2011
You're the Love I Wanna be In
By choice, I would be your bright tears
Conceived in your heart then born from your eyes,
My course continues without any fears
I’d live on cheeks, die on your lips and end your cries.
May your voice be the most divine;
A melody that soothes my inner most side.
Eventually I’ll learn your lyrics and see the sign,
That one day, I shall be your bride.
Your heart, so delicate, so true,
Once loved, then torn, and eventually in pieces.
But with me there will be no boohoo’s,
Only the love and bliss increases.
As others have done, I will not do you wrong.
Therefore, together we shall only grow strong.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
I want you, to want me.
And so the starvation and excessive workouts begin. I hate being depressed. But when nothing seems right, hubby's sick, we're arguing I guess you'd say, and he won't text me, I feel like I have nothing to turn to but focusing on my body. I'm falling apart. I can barely see the keyboard right now through the tears and all I can think is I love him. Only him. I just wish he knew how much a simple text means to me. Just a message like goodmorning or even hi from him can completely turn my day around but I don't think he realizes it. I really hope he can make it through days like today with me. I can get very emotional at times which tend to scare them off when really I need them to come closer. I mean I plan to have a future with this boy! It takes alot to get that from me! You must be an angel compared to others for me to even consider that. I hope he understands that I'm not letting him slip away without a fight. No. I'm not letting him slip away period. Unless of course he gives me the dreaded words, 'I don't want you.' Then I would let him proceed to something that actually makes him happy. But for now he has me believing I'm his happiness. I pray it stays that way forever unto eternity.
Well so far I feel a bit better. I'm slowly starting to catch my breath. Maybe he'll actually read this...I guess I won't know unless he tells me. He should know that when I say I love you I mean that I can look past any flaws and find all good in him and will never leave him until I die. Hopefully he gets that.
Anyways I'll post again, hopefully not another big confession/vent/sob story.
I love you guys!
Thanks for reading!
Peace, love, NotSoAverageGirl<3
Well so far I feel a bit better. I'm slowly starting to catch my breath. Maybe he'll actually read this...I guess I won't know unless he tells me. He should know that when I say I love you I mean that I can look past any flaws and find all good in him and will never leave him until I die. Hopefully he gets that.
Anyways I'll post again, hopefully not another big confession/vent/sob story.
I love you guys!
Thanks for reading!
Peace, love, NotSoAverageGirl<3
Friday, June 10, 2011
Just A Kiss(:
Hey there!!
I've made it back soon! haha
Anyways, can't jibber too long. I'll be heading to my hubby's here shortly. :) Staying with him once again! Get to see him and our baby boy Ciroc, my two favorite boys!:) Roc is slowly learning to be house trained. His daddy said he pooped on the pad last night! Woohoo! lol One proud mommy!! And I can't wait to kidnap him for a night tomorrow! Give daddy a break even though he says he doesn't need it. I think he just doesn't want him to go. ;) Him's done got attached!! Poor boy has to work tomorrow which means I really only have tonight with him but that's better than nothing! I don't ever see him during the week because he's always busy. :( Friday is about all I get from him. Oh well. I have the rest of my life with the boyy!:DD
It's 20 days until I leave for DC!! sooooo excited!
I went swimming with the best friend today and I think I got a lil red. My arms are letting off so much heat! lol I know our bed will be hot tonight!!!!;)
Only 10 weeks till I get to move in college and 12 weeks until I'm legal and can be put in big girl jail!! haha Gucci!:D
Approximately 30 minutes till I head to his house... And it's times like these where I wish time would fly!!!
I really should be extra sweet tonight because I've been a true bitch to him this week whether I meant to or not. I feel really bad. He even pissed me off in my dream last night! haha You see I was at my house and my parents were about to leave to head to the lake and they said I could have a friend over so I invited my boyfriend and my best girlfriend. Turns out my best friend showed up with alot of people who decided to have a pool party at my house that night without asking us. So my parents ended up staying to keep an eye on the place during the party. It was all going good until I was chilling in the pool talking to this one girl and my boyfriend came up and started holding her hand. I didn't say anything and neither did they. So I went in to the house for a minute and when I came back out they had cuddled up on one of the chairs that lays out. I still ignored for a while and then they both got in the pool and she came to talk to me while he went to talk to the guys. Then I swam across the pool to get out at the ladder which was about 5 feet from him and he started to swim away because he thought I was coming over to him. I ended up going inside and changing and cried my eyes out. No one asked any questions. Not even my best friend. When I finally came out everyone was gone including him. I asked where he went and they said he left with that girl. That's about where I woke up and I was so mad I was crying in my sleep! haha How pathetic?! I can't help but get protective over him though. I love him way too much to let him get away that easy.
Well, that wasted a full 15 minutes. Wonderful. I guess I'll get off here and go pack.
Enjoy your summer loves!
I'll be back on very soon! Promise!
Lovelove:
NotSoAverageGirl :)
I've made it back soon! haha
Anyways, can't jibber too long. I'll be heading to my hubby's here shortly. :) Staying with him once again! Get to see him and our baby boy Ciroc, my two favorite boys!:) Roc is slowly learning to be house trained. His daddy said he pooped on the pad last night! Woohoo! lol One proud mommy!! And I can't wait to kidnap him for a night tomorrow! Give daddy a break even though he says he doesn't need it. I think he just doesn't want him to go. ;) Him's done got attached!! Poor boy has to work tomorrow which means I really only have tonight with him but that's better than nothing! I don't ever see him during the week because he's always busy. :( Friday is about all I get from him. Oh well. I have the rest of my life with the boyy!:DD
It's 20 days until I leave for DC!! sooooo excited!
I went swimming with the best friend today and I think I got a lil red. My arms are letting off so much heat! lol I know our bed will be hot tonight!!!!;)
Only 10 weeks till I get to move in college and 12 weeks until I'm legal and can be put in big girl jail!! haha Gucci!:D
Approximately 30 minutes till I head to his house... And it's times like these where I wish time would fly!!!
I really should be extra sweet tonight because I've been a true bitch to him this week whether I meant to or not. I feel really bad. He even pissed me off in my dream last night! haha You see I was at my house and my parents were about to leave to head to the lake and they said I could have a friend over so I invited my boyfriend and my best girlfriend. Turns out my best friend showed up with alot of people who decided to have a pool party at my house that night without asking us. So my parents ended up staying to keep an eye on the place during the party. It was all going good until I was chilling in the pool talking to this one girl and my boyfriend came up and started holding her hand. I didn't say anything and neither did they. So I went in to the house for a minute and when I came back out they had cuddled up on one of the chairs that lays out. I still ignored for a while and then they both got in the pool and she came to talk to me while he went to talk to the guys. Then I swam across the pool to get out at the ladder which was about 5 feet from him and he started to swim away because he thought I was coming over to him. I ended up going inside and changing and cried my eyes out. No one asked any questions. Not even my best friend. When I finally came out everyone was gone including him. I asked where he went and they said he left with that girl. That's about where I woke up and I was so mad I was crying in my sleep! haha How pathetic?! I can't help but get protective over him though. I love him way too much to let him get away that easy.
Well, that wasted a full 15 minutes. Wonderful. I guess I'll get off here and go pack.
Enjoy your summer loves!
I'll be back on very soon! Promise!
Lovelove:
NotSoAverageGirl :)
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
I Get A Little Bit Stronger(:
Hey guys! Hmmm, where to start?? Well I know it's been forever since I've posted but I promise I haven't forgotten about y'all. I've been super busy. So much excitement going on. I'm finally a registered honor student at ASU! :)) I truly canNOT wait for college to start. I got to drive there yesterday for the first time alone! It was a wonderful day!
I also have the DC trip coming up soon. 22 days until we leave!!! That will be one busyyy week! It will be loads of fun though.
The family is...well the family. When do I not fight with them? Haha My 18th birthday needs to hurry!!! I will be much better off. Happy and less stress.
I'm taking summer classes right now. One morning class and one night class. They're not too bad but I still stress like always.
The little cousin came back with me yesterday. :) she gets to stay a week with us. Fun stuff!
I really can't wait for July. My friend and I are planning to tryout for American Idol at St. Louis. The plan is for us to go in the room together and sing and play a song we've written. We'll be playing our guitars and singing along. Music is absolutely our life! :)
I'm really loving the new cd I made today. Except pretty much every song relates to love. That sounds about right. I guess it's just because I'm a girl, or maybe I really am in love. You knew I had to mention that boy sooner or later! ;) he is very busy with work here lately, which means I hardly see or talk to him. :'( I know it's not his fault, but I get really flustered. I'm surprised he hasn't dumped me for bitching him out so much here lately. What really pisses me off is him not talking to me more than he does. I'm a busy busy girl and even I find time to talk to him. Here lately I just feel like I've been chasing him instead of the other way around. He warned me it's gonna be tough being a farmer's girl. I'm willing to do whatever I must though. I really do love this boy. He's the only one I love. I pray day and night he doesn't beat my heart down. I Can be myself around him and we really connect. We've been together for a little over two months now. :) I can't wait to be his forever! Here recently we've been getting tangled often. Every Friday night I find a way to stay with him and we (so far) have had sex every time. It's breathtaking it's so amazing! Last Friday I rode the tractor with him. Yes, on there too!!! Lol but besides the fact that we did that I loved every minute of it! I can't wait to be able to ride with him more often. I'm still debating on whether I want him to read this or not. That's alot of feelings!! I guess it's good we have a strong trust bond. I miss him allll the time. I just hope he knows I'm dead serious about us and I would die for him. He may do things that upset me but nothing could break my love for him. NOTHING! :)
Well I think it's about bedtime! I'll post again, sooner this time!
Goodnight my lovesss! (:
Peace, Love, NotSoAverageGirl<3
I also have the DC trip coming up soon. 22 days until we leave!!! That will be one busyyy week! It will be loads of fun though.
The family is...well the family. When do I not fight with them? Haha My 18th birthday needs to hurry!!! I will be much better off. Happy and less stress.
I'm taking summer classes right now. One morning class and one night class. They're not too bad but I still stress like always.
The little cousin came back with me yesterday. :) she gets to stay a week with us. Fun stuff!
I really can't wait for July. My friend and I are planning to tryout for American Idol at St. Louis. The plan is for us to go in the room together and sing and play a song we've written. We'll be playing our guitars and singing along. Music is absolutely our life! :)
I'm really loving the new cd I made today. Except pretty much every song relates to love. That sounds about right. I guess it's just because I'm a girl, or maybe I really am in love. You knew I had to mention that boy sooner or later! ;) he is very busy with work here lately, which means I hardly see or talk to him. :'( I know it's not his fault, but I get really flustered. I'm surprised he hasn't dumped me for bitching him out so much here lately. What really pisses me off is him not talking to me more than he does. I'm a busy busy girl and even I find time to talk to him. Here lately I just feel like I've been chasing him instead of the other way around. He warned me it's gonna be tough being a farmer's girl. I'm willing to do whatever I must though. I really do love this boy. He's the only one I love. I pray day and night he doesn't beat my heart down. I Can be myself around him and we really connect. We've been together for a little over two months now. :) I can't wait to be his forever! Here recently we've been getting tangled often. Every Friday night I find a way to stay with him and we (so far) have had sex every time. It's breathtaking it's so amazing! Last Friday I rode the tractor with him. Yes, on there too!!! Lol but besides the fact that we did that I loved every minute of it! I can't wait to be able to ride with him more often. I'm still debating on whether I want him to read this or not. That's alot of feelings!! I guess it's good we have a strong trust bond. I miss him allll the time. I just hope he knows I'm dead serious about us and I would die for him. He may do things that upset me but nothing could break my love for him. NOTHING! :)
Well I think it's about bedtime! I'll post again, sooner this time!
Goodnight my lovesss! (:
Peace, Love, NotSoAverageGirl<3
Saturday, April 30, 2011
If I Fall, Will You Let Me Down Easy?(;
Heyyooo!(:
This is one happy girl!! Let me tell you! There's no reason for this girl to ever stop smiling now. How could my life get any more perfect?! I just thought I had things right with Caleb. Eh hem. No sir! Yeah he may have been one really sweet and faithful guy but this boy, this amazing guy has him beat by a long shot!
I'll tell you a bit about him...obviously he's 21. He just bought himself a new truck. I swear he spoils himself wayyy too much!;) haha jk! He THINKS he's gonna spoil me but that's not gonna happen;) I ain't with him for material things. More like that sparkling personality! I've never met a guy so dedicated and serious about what he says. Of course, me being a teenage girl, I've gotten the 'We're gonna get married' line before. However, when it's with him, I know for a fact it's true. It's not just my head that believes it like it was with the others. My whole body aches with happiness and love.(:
Last night, we went to my grandparents' to get our puppy from my aunt. Ciroc(: He slept in the bed with us half the night haha. He's gonna be a momma's boy. He had to sleep curled up next to his mommy with his daddy wrapped around us. One happy family!:D
Marriage?! Yeah I think so! He says he wants to marry me and I say I want to marry him. He asks me if I'm being serious???? Ummm, baby let me just tell you that I love you more than life itself, to infinity and beyond, to the moon and back a million and two times, forever and always, no matter what. I'm not going anywhere as long as you don't want me to! It's all up to you...just I ask you to please not hurt me.
I know this was just one big mushy gushy lovey post but I can't stop thinking about that boy. :)
Anyways take care my dears!
8 more days of school!!!
Less than 3 weeks till graduation!!!
Life. Is. Perfect.
Peace, Love, & NotSoAverageGirl(:
This is one happy girl!! Let me tell you! There's no reason for this girl to ever stop smiling now. How could my life get any more perfect?! I just thought I had things right with Caleb. Eh hem. No sir! Yeah he may have been one really sweet and faithful guy but this boy, this amazing guy has him beat by a long shot!
I'll tell you a bit about him...obviously he's 21. He just bought himself a new truck. I swear he spoils himself wayyy too much!;) haha jk! He THINKS he's gonna spoil me but that's not gonna happen;) I ain't with him for material things. More like that sparkling personality! I've never met a guy so dedicated and serious about what he says. Of course, me being a teenage girl, I've gotten the 'We're gonna get married' line before. However, when it's with him, I know for a fact it's true. It's not just my head that believes it like it was with the others. My whole body aches with happiness and love.(:
Last night, we went to my grandparents' to get our puppy from my aunt. Ciroc(: He slept in the bed with us half the night haha. He's gonna be a momma's boy. He had to sleep curled up next to his mommy with his daddy wrapped around us. One happy family!:D
Marriage?! Yeah I think so! He says he wants to marry me and I say I want to marry him. He asks me if I'm being serious???? Ummm, baby let me just tell you that I love you more than life itself, to infinity and beyond, to the moon and back a million and two times, forever and always, no matter what. I'm not going anywhere as long as you don't want me to! It's all up to you...just I ask you to please not hurt me.
I know this was just one big mushy gushy lovey post but I can't stop thinking about that boy. :)
Anyways take care my dears!
8 more days of school!!!
Less than 3 weeks till graduation!!!
Life. Is. Perfect.
Peace, Love, & NotSoAverageGirl(:
Thursday, April 28, 2011
I love you to infinity and beyond!(:
Well hello my dear friends!
To start off I want to say I'm terribly sorry I haven't been posting lately at all. I believe it has been forever!:(
I've been pretty darn busy. Between school, college, physical therapy, family, friends, and the boyfriend, I don't get much personal time.
School: let's see. Tons and tons of tests!! Finals and AP exams...ugh!!
College: scholarships, roommates, dorms, important dates, summer classes. Just loads of stress!!
Physical therapy: As I told yall, I got hurt playing soccer. I bruised the cartilage in my knee, tore my maniscus, and completely destroyed my ACL which all means...SURGERY. Nothing fun. I had my surgery April 8th. Doctor said I should hopefully be walking 6 weeks from the surgery. What is exactly 6 weeks from the surgery? GRADUATION!!! I better be walking on my own without the crutches by then or I am going to be pyiiiiiisssssed! So for now I'm just exercising and praying that I can walk soon. It's been three weeks tomorrow. Three weeks to go!
Family: Well I've made a trip to my aunt's in Missouri. Got this new handy laptop for college:) Got my iPod set up! Woohoo! This weekend I have a supper with my family and uncle that will be moved to Texas. May be the last time I ever get to see him:''( I'm super sad about that!
Friends: Well what can I say? We are teenagers trying to survive high school. Some friends are true friends. Some friends are the 'temporary' friends(the ones that are two-faced). With all the stress we're all about to go crazy, but we are holding on as tight as we can.
Boyfriend: Boyfriend? Yes, you heard me right. BOYFRIEND!!!:D Remember that 21 year old that I went on a date with? Yeah, well that would be the love of my life!:) He asked me to make it official on prom night! He is absolutley the greatest guy I know! Lord, I could go on and on about him but I'll make it as short and sweet as possible. He has promised to marry me!:) Yes! That serious! We've already....kinda had sex as well lol. Last Saturday. I plan to stay with him tomorrow night and possibly even Saturday! Tomorrow we are going to my family's to pick our baby, a puppy pit bull. We've named him Ciroc!:) Rock for short.
Anywho, it is already 9:30 and I am exhausted. I've been sick as can be all week:( I think I'm about to head to dreamland:)
9 days left for SENIORSS!!:))))
Graduation is right around the corner!!
Love you my loveliesss!
NotSoAverageGirl(:
To start off I want to say I'm terribly sorry I haven't been posting lately at all. I believe it has been forever!:(
I've been pretty darn busy. Between school, college, physical therapy, family, friends, and the boyfriend, I don't get much personal time.
School: let's see. Tons and tons of tests!! Finals and AP exams...ugh!!
College: scholarships, roommates, dorms, important dates, summer classes. Just loads of stress!!
Physical therapy: As I told yall, I got hurt playing soccer. I bruised the cartilage in my knee, tore my maniscus, and completely destroyed my ACL which all means...SURGERY. Nothing fun. I had my surgery April 8th. Doctor said I should hopefully be walking 6 weeks from the surgery. What is exactly 6 weeks from the surgery? GRADUATION!!! I better be walking on my own without the crutches by then or I am going to be pyiiiiiisssssed! So for now I'm just exercising and praying that I can walk soon. It's been three weeks tomorrow. Three weeks to go!
Family: Well I've made a trip to my aunt's in Missouri. Got this new handy laptop for college:) Got my iPod set up! Woohoo! This weekend I have a supper with my family and uncle that will be moved to Texas. May be the last time I ever get to see him:''( I'm super sad about that!
Friends: Well what can I say? We are teenagers trying to survive high school. Some friends are true friends. Some friends are the 'temporary' friends(the ones that are two-faced). With all the stress we're all about to go crazy, but we are holding on as tight as we can.
Boyfriend: Boyfriend? Yes, you heard me right. BOYFRIEND!!!:D Remember that 21 year old that I went on a date with? Yeah, well that would be the love of my life!:) He asked me to make it official on prom night! He is absolutley the greatest guy I know! Lord, I could go on and on about him but I'll make it as short and sweet as possible. He has promised to marry me!:) Yes! That serious! We've already....kinda had sex as well lol. Last Saturday. I plan to stay with him tomorrow night and possibly even Saturday! Tomorrow we are going to my family's to pick our baby, a puppy pit bull. We've named him Ciroc!:) Rock for short.
Anywho, it is already 9:30 and I am exhausted. I've been sick as can be all week:( I think I'm about to head to dreamland:)
9 days left for SENIORSS!!:))))
Graduation is right around the corner!!
Love you my loveliesss!
NotSoAverageGirl(:
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Omyggg!
Okay, okay. Date with this 21 year old boyy--I am nervous as heck!! :/ Wish me luck guyss!
lovelove:
NotSoAverageGirl(:
lovelove:
NotSoAverageGirl(:
Monday, March 28, 2011
Oh my Lawd uh mussy!(:
So this new guy. 21. Likes me? Ahh! Say whaaaat?! He's veeeery sweet, cute, and knows just how to make me smile. (: Annnd his mother was my English teacher and bowling coach and we love each other so she approves! What would my father say? Umm, no clue! I guess we'll see on a later date.
And prom is Friday!! Well I had the choice between the dance or Kenny Chesney. Yeah, my knee may have messed both up. :( I have an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon Wednesday and more than likely surgery. :/ I'm soo scared of what's coming up in the next few days! I'm just ready to be better alreadyyy!! Grr.
Anywho I'll post more later dearies!
lovelove<3
NotSoAverageGirl(:
And prom is Friday!! Well I had the choice between the dance or Kenny Chesney. Yeah, my knee may have messed both up. :( I have an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon Wednesday and more than likely surgery. :/ I'm soo scared of what's coming up in the next few days! I'm just ready to be better alreadyyy!! Grr.
Anywho I'll post more later dearies!
lovelove<3
NotSoAverageGirl(:
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
At least I'm not in Japan...
Well my soccer career, you might say, went out the window Thursday night. I now have a tore or stretched ligament in my knee. I have to wear a mobilizer and I'm on crutches. I tried to take a step after it happened and one of the girls started laughing and said, "You look like a retarded kid trying to walk!" Just wonderful. I can't put any pressure on my leg otherwise the lower and upper parts of my knee push past one another causing it to wobble and I fall. It's swollen to the point that it's three or four times the size of my other knee. I can't even describe the pain I'm in. :'( And not only does my knee hurt but the muscles in my leg hurts from using them more than normal. Let's just say I will have one toned right leg when I'm healed! My arms are also killing from the crutches. :( I guess you could say my entire body aches.
Anyways....if I don't post as much as I thought over Spring Break, I'm terribly sorry. It's cause i'm on bed rest and can barely get out of bed.
I'll post again soon hopefully!
Iloveyou guyss!
<3 NotSoAverageGirl
Anyways....if I don't post as much as I thought over Spring Break, I'm terribly sorry. It's cause i'm on bed rest and can barely get out of bed.
I'll post again soon hopefully!
Iloveyou guyss!
<3 NotSoAverageGirl
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Okay, to all these people that like to give me the 'go to hell' look...FUCK you. I'm not dealing with the shit. I guess it's a good thing you were the easiest to get over. I'm tired of the jerkness.
He thinks he can delete me on Facebook and ignore my texts? Well okay. Honey, two can play this game. Pretty sure the entire family including you are blocked from my everything. I don't have you number and I'm completely done. Just so you know, english is the worst part of my day and you just made college even more desirable for me. Some 'brudder' you are asshole.
And I'm tired of my 'friends' saying they won't take sides between their friends yet when I talk to them about him they take up for his dumbass. Yeah some 'friend'.
I just love the way Caleb's treating me, especially after how I let him read this blog that was mostly ALL about him including my deepest feeling. I swear if he runs his mouth to anyone about this, I will be one unhappy lady. And running your mouth to that 'friend' of mine about me every single day? Oh hell no. You're just digging your grave hole bigger and bigger little boy. You may be bigger than me but I know you're a little chicken and I could personally whoop you with my pinky. You're headed down the wrong street buddy boy.
On the bright side...2 more days of school then it's spring break! This means blogging every day for a week!:)
Only 33 days left of high school tooooo!:D
I'm soooo ready to graduate it's not even funny.
Now to my loves who read my blog...I'm terribly sorry about all that bullshit jibberish. I just had to calm my nerves by venting. Remember I only vent to you cause I know you can take it:) I hope those noted read it and realize what they sparked in me.
But anyways before I get carried away againnn:)
I love you guys oh so much!
<3, peace, NotSoAverageGirl
He thinks he can delete me on Facebook and ignore my texts? Well okay. Honey, two can play this game. Pretty sure the entire family including you are blocked from my everything. I don't have you number and I'm completely done. Just so you know, english is the worst part of my day and you just made college even more desirable for me. Some 'brudder' you are asshole.
And I'm tired of my 'friends' saying they won't take sides between their friends yet when I talk to them about him they take up for his dumbass. Yeah some 'friend'.
I just love the way Caleb's treating me, especially after how I let him read this blog that was mostly ALL about him including my deepest feeling. I swear if he runs his mouth to anyone about this, I will be one unhappy lady. And running your mouth to that 'friend' of mine about me every single day? Oh hell no. You're just digging your grave hole bigger and bigger little boy. You may be bigger than me but I know you're a little chicken and I could personally whoop you with my pinky. You're headed down the wrong street buddy boy.
On the bright side...2 more days of school then it's spring break! This means blogging every day for a week!:)
Only 33 days left of high school tooooo!:D
I'm soooo ready to graduate it's not even funny.
Now to my loves who read my blog...I'm terribly sorry about all that bullshit jibberish. I just had to calm my nerves by venting. Remember I only vent to you cause I know you can take it:) I hope those noted read it and realize what they sparked in me.
But anyways before I get carried away againnn:)
I love you guys oh so much!
<3, peace, NotSoAverageGirl
Saturday, March 12, 2011
I wubb youu!(:
Okay, so life can be a complete bitch! If anyone would know, it would be this girl! So I break up with Caleb right? Yeahhh...about that.
Let's see..
1. I didn't feel much of an attraction anymore :(
2. He was too sweet
3. He deserves better
4. I felt I couldn't give him my all
5. I'm still totally and completely in love with my ex
And last night I stayed with my ex. Had to take a chance and sneak around the family to get there but it was worth it all the way. Took one of those long showers with the boy, play fought in the dark, and ended up entangled a few times. ;) Gahh, there's no explaining how much I missed this boy!
Now, don't think life is perfect with the fairytale ending, because of course, it's not. I still have Caleb to deal with. I never intended to hurt him. I just get really frustrated when people show they're upset because of me, right in front of me. It makes me think they want me to feel bad. Fuck that shit. It pisses me off. Caleb is a sweetheart and all but I was just fed up with everything being about me. I don't like all the spotlight dear;)
Anywhooo, we fought this morning. Told him I fucked my ex twice. Mean but hey, at least I'm honest. I warned him I wasn't good for him. I guess we worked things out now though. Brudder and sister? Something like that.
I definitely had a big case of PMS--pissed at men syndrome--yesterday/today. Sorry, I couldn't help being a bitch. I hope he doesn't hate me? lol
Only four school days then it's spring breakkk!
Then, then Prommm:)
And finally...35 days left for SENIORSSS! May 20th is slowly creeping here!:DD
OH! The band made all ones last night!!! I had the best flute solo the judges heard all day!:D Sweepstakes babyyyyyyyy!
Toodles lovelies!
<3 NotSoAverageGirl
Let's see..
1. I didn't feel much of an attraction anymore :(
2. He was too sweet
3. He deserves better
4. I felt I couldn't give him my all
5. I'm still totally and completely in love with my ex
And last night I stayed with my ex. Had to take a chance and sneak around the family to get there but it was worth it all the way. Took one of those long showers with the boy, play fought in the dark, and ended up entangled a few times. ;) Gahh, there's no explaining how much I missed this boy!
Now, don't think life is perfect with the fairytale ending, because of course, it's not. I still have Caleb to deal with. I never intended to hurt him. I just get really frustrated when people show they're upset because of me, right in front of me. It makes me think they want me to feel bad. Fuck that shit. It pisses me off. Caleb is a sweetheart and all but I was just fed up with everything being about me. I don't like all the spotlight dear;)
Anywhooo, we fought this morning. Told him I fucked my ex twice. Mean but hey, at least I'm honest. I warned him I wasn't good for him. I guess we worked things out now though. Brudder and sister? Something like that.
I definitely had a big case of PMS--pissed at men syndrome--yesterday/today. Sorry, I couldn't help being a bitch. I hope he doesn't hate me? lol
Only four school days then it's spring breakkk!
Then, then Prommm:)
And finally...35 days left for SENIORSSS! May 20th is slowly creeping here!:DD
OH! The band made all ones last night!!! I had the best flute solo the judges heard all day!:D Sweepstakes babyyyyyyyy!
Toodles lovelies!
<3 NotSoAverageGirl
Monday, March 7, 2011
Sunday, March 6, 2011
The Best Girlfriend Everrr!(:
Sooo, first soccer game? Bummer, guys won but girls lost by two. Me being goalie...pretty much my fault; although, I must say I know for sure on two of the goals I almost had them including my dive that left me bruised for a week. Ready for the next one though. We will whoop some ass!:)
Seniors: 40 days of high school left!!!!!!! Ahhhh!:DD Couldn't be much happier at this point in time! 9 days time our last spring break. :( :) Senioritis is starting to hit...HARD! I wish soo bad it was May already! Cleaning my room today refreshed me and just excited me to move to college even more! I canNOT wait much longer or I just might die. For me, college = 18 and freedommm!:)
Prom...prom, prom, prom. Or Kenny Chesney? The bestest friend wants to go to prom and go dress shopping tomorrow but concerts happen to be my thing. I'll probably end up at the boring, old prom. Oh well. Dresses make me happy. :) Funny thing is our boyfriends, Mr. Caleb and his friend, they already have dates...that aren't us! :( Guess we were just a bit behind! haha
It seems like the closer graduation gets here the more homework we get. WTF is up with that? I'm ready to be done! Don't they understand that???? Grrr!
And once again, my prince charming has given me another wonderful weekend. Just a visit to the second family's house on Friday, lunch on Saturday, visit friends at the police department, to his house for a while, then to mine, and back to his. :) haha He swears his family loves me. What I don't understand is what they find different about me than the other girls he's dated. Apparently they trust us home alone more than they did him with the others. Makes me feel awesomee!:D Anyways I love them to death! And lil Justin...I just knew he'd love me. Caleb swore he'd put me in the hospital. No sir!;) Not this girl! And shout out to Caleb considering I now let him read my shit! haha I'm too sweet, I know.
C - careful. He is very cautious with every move he makes. He doesn't want to mess a single thing up.
A - adorable. He sleeps like a baby, so cute and adorable. :)
L - lively. There is never a dull moment around this boyy!
E - encouraging. He will support me in every way with everything I do.
B - blue-eyed. He has these lovely, blue eyes that I just can't seem to get out of my head.
Gahh, he is just...perfect. For me. There's no way I could let him go or take back what I had without fighting for the chance to be with him!
And guess what. I caught you! You were just smiling!;) haha
Laterrrr guys!
LoveeLove: <3
NotSoAverageGirl(:
Seniors: 40 days of high school left!!!!!!! Ahhhh!:DD Couldn't be much happier at this point in time! 9 days time our last spring break. :( :) Senioritis is starting to hit...HARD! I wish soo bad it was May already! Cleaning my room today refreshed me and just excited me to move to college even more! I canNOT wait much longer or I just might die. For me, college = 18 and freedommm!:)
Prom...prom, prom, prom. Or Kenny Chesney? The bestest friend wants to go to prom and go dress shopping tomorrow but concerts happen to be my thing. I'll probably end up at the boring, old prom. Oh well. Dresses make me happy. :) Funny thing is our boyfriends, Mr. Caleb and his friend, they already have dates...that aren't us! :( Guess we were just a bit behind! haha
It seems like the closer graduation gets here the more homework we get. WTF is up with that? I'm ready to be done! Don't they understand that???? Grrr!
And once again, my prince charming has given me another wonderful weekend. Just a visit to the second family's house on Friday, lunch on Saturday, visit friends at the police department, to his house for a while, then to mine, and back to his. :) haha He swears his family loves me. What I don't understand is what they find different about me than the other girls he's dated. Apparently they trust us home alone more than they did him with the others. Makes me feel awesomee!:D Anyways I love them to death! And lil Justin...I just knew he'd love me. Caleb swore he'd put me in the hospital. No sir!;) Not this girl! And shout out to Caleb considering I now let him read my shit! haha I'm too sweet, I know.
C - careful. He is very cautious with every move he makes. He doesn't want to mess a single thing up.
A - adorable. He sleeps like a baby, so cute and adorable. :)
L - lively. There is never a dull moment around this boyy!
E - encouraging. He will support me in every way with everything I do.
B - blue-eyed. He has these lovely, blue eyes that I just can't seem to get out of my head.
Gahh, he is just...perfect. For me. There's no way I could let him go or take back what I had without fighting for the chance to be with him!
And guess what. I caught you! You were just smiling!;) haha
Laterrrr guys!
LoveeLove: <3
NotSoAverageGirl(:
Monday, February 21, 2011
Are you gonna kiss me or not?!
Who has the best boyfriend everrr?? This girll!:)) Gah he is ahhhmazing! How did I ever survive this long without him? I got to see him Friday night, Saturday night, Sunday, and today. Every bit of time with him is worth it. And damn straight, we are the cutest thing you have and will ever see;) haha okay. So that's a bit conceited but I am excited!
He believes we are perfect. I know for a fact he's fallen. (: I wish I could tell him the same buuut I don't have the best talent of expressing my feelings in words. Let's just say I constantly remind myself that I've gotten lucky to find someone who really likes me and cares for ME, not just my body and what I have to offer. I feel like he could do much better than me, but secretly inside I'm ecstatic that he's chosen me over all the other girls. What he sees in me, I will never know and understand.
Caleb's new name for me: Lil Dick:) haha and not because of THAT... The story behind it...well, you see, him and his dad have "Richard" in their name. A Richard is often called Dick. Lots of people would call them Father Dick and Lil Dick. Sooo, that's why I now call him that.
I also loooove how we can spend time together and not be all handsy the whole time. Occasionally is cool. However, sometimes I just wanna cuddle you know? On the other hand, there are times I prefer to get a lil frisky. ;) Friday night for instance. I evidently know just how to get him going. He fought the urge to rub his hands all over for about fifteen minutes until I pushed him so far he couldn't stand it anymore. haha I wasn't forcing him to do anything, I just simply wanted to see how much of me he could take before his breaking point. Once again, we didn't do anything too serious. His words when he saw the 'sight of the night' were, "Well aren't you pretty?" lmao! He can crack my shit up!
Anywhoooo! Don't think I'm a slut, because I totally am not! I promise.
I swear this boy is absolutely the greatest! There is never, ever, ever a dull or boring moment around him and his family! I really think I could end up loving this boyyy!:D
Okay, I believe I should give my friends a shout out?! I think so! They are the bestest any girl could ever ask for!! I love them with all my heart and I hope they know that!!!!!!! Nothing could ever make me mad at them. Not even when college day plans may not get to happen!;) They better know I'm always, always, ALWAYS here for them for anything, anything at all! College next year will be phenomenal with the bestie forreals! She better be ready for everything in the book!;)
School can suck my ass! This research paper, A Thousand Splendid Suns, Speeches, and whatever else they decide to pitch at us is starting to stress me and piss me off. May 20th pleeeeeeeease come rescue us! Kthanks! The seniors!!
And summer?? Where is you at?!?! I need you to come get me and carry me to DC already! Be sure to watch me in the nation's independence day parade! HINT: I'll be a girl twirling in one of the bands marching!:D Spotlight on me bayyybeee!:)
Welpp, guess I better get busy on Mr. Kahled Hossieni(or however you spell it).
Toodles my loveliess!
Love love:
NotSoAverageGirl
He believes we are perfect. I know for a fact he's fallen. (: I wish I could tell him the same buuut I don't have the best talent of expressing my feelings in words. Let's just say I constantly remind myself that I've gotten lucky to find someone who really likes me and cares for ME, not just my body and what I have to offer. I feel like he could do much better than me, but secretly inside I'm ecstatic that he's chosen me over all the other girls. What he sees in me, I will never know and understand.
Caleb's new name for me: Lil Dick:) haha and not because of THAT... The story behind it...well, you see, him and his dad have "Richard" in their name. A Richard is often called Dick. Lots of people would call them Father Dick and Lil Dick. Sooo, that's why I now call him that.
I also loooove how we can spend time together and not be all handsy the whole time. Occasionally is cool. However, sometimes I just wanna cuddle you know? On the other hand, there are times I prefer to get a lil frisky. ;) Friday night for instance. I evidently know just how to get him going. He fought the urge to rub his hands all over for about fifteen minutes until I pushed him so far he couldn't stand it anymore. haha I wasn't forcing him to do anything, I just simply wanted to see how much of me he could take before his breaking point. Once again, we didn't do anything too serious. His words when he saw the 'sight of the night' were, "Well aren't you pretty?" lmao! He can crack my shit up!
Anywhoooo! Don't think I'm a slut, because I totally am not! I promise.
I swear this boy is absolutely the greatest! There is never, ever, ever a dull or boring moment around him and his family! I really think I could end up loving this boyyy!:D
Okay, I believe I should give my friends a shout out?! I think so! They are the bestest any girl could ever ask for!! I love them with all my heart and I hope they know that!!!!!!! Nothing could ever make me mad at them. Not even when college day plans may not get to happen!;) They better know I'm always, always, ALWAYS here for them for anything, anything at all! College next year will be phenomenal with the bestie forreals! She better be ready for everything in the book!;)
School can suck my ass! This research paper, A Thousand Splendid Suns, Speeches, and whatever else they decide to pitch at us is starting to stress me and piss me off. May 20th pleeeeeeeease come rescue us! Kthanks! The seniors!!
And summer?? Where is you at?!?! I need you to come get me and carry me to DC already! Be sure to watch me in the nation's independence day parade! HINT: I'll be a girl twirling in one of the bands marching!:D Spotlight on me bayyybeee!:)
Welpp, guess I better get busy on Mr. Kahled Hossieni(or however you spell it).
Toodles my loveliess!
Love love:
NotSoAverageGirl
Thursday, February 17, 2011
This Is One Happy Girl!(:
Soo, he's smiling from ear to ear, just as I am. Why might you ask?? Because Caleb and I have finally made it official!!:D I don't think I could possibly be happier. I ask myself alllll the time, "How did I get so lucky?"
Well first of all he is the sweetest thing ever! Everything is about me. I know that kinda seems selfish, but at least I know he cares about me. Plus, it's not like I'll make it all about me. I'll return the favor and pull him into attention as well. He bought me cholocates for Valentine's Day and took me out for dinner. He's absolutely amazing!
Also, his family is the best! They love me and I love them already!:D He has a little sister that is like 15 I think? Anyways, I've always wanted a sister that age and she's perfect! I think we could really get along and have a strong bond.
His mother, I can't even begin to describe. She is a teacher that helps with the little mental kids. How sweet is that? Obviously she loves kids just like me! She's very cool and understanding. I can also tell that she is a good shopper and has great taste! We're a perfect combo with little seester too!:)
Now his dad, he is hilarious. He knows just how to make me blush with me not even around. ;) haha He has taught Caleb very well how to treat a woman. Caleb gets countless great traits from his padre. For example, their determination and braveness. Their hobby: drag racing.
Now Caleb and his racing? Scares me half to death. I'm terrified I will lose him in a wreck. I guess standing on the sideline with mother and seester, I'll learn to enjoy it....eventually. Racing gives him time to be daring and the big bad boy. haha Every guy wants a little edge in their life at some point right? Guess it gives him plenty of thrill and spotlight. I love the energy and support the family gives him and his dad. It really pulls them close together.
I speak very highly of Caleb and his family, but I'm sure they have their faults just as everyone else. I'm not sure what they could be but I really think I will be able to look past them for this guy. :)
Tuesday and today I was lucky enough to spend allll day with him. We share a love for bowling. It gave us plenty of time to get to know one another and is probably the reason we are where we are today. He did absolutely sensational today! His scores were 211, 223, and 186. His total strikes: 23. One of my good friends decided to tell him for every strike he got, he earned a kiss from muah. ;) Let's just say the night ended with a sweet and simple one. His last words were, "22 and counting." haha Gotta love the boy!:)
Well it's been another looong, stressful day. I'm about to hit the hay!
Goodnight my lovesss,
Love: NotSoAverageGirl<3
Well first of all he is the sweetest thing ever! Everything is about me. I know that kinda seems selfish, but at least I know he cares about me. Plus, it's not like I'll make it all about me. I'll return the favor and pull him into attention as well. He bought me cholocates for Valentine's Day and took me out for dinner. He's absolutely amazing!
Also, his family is the best! They love me and I love them already!:D He has a little sister that is like 15 I think? Anyways, I've always wanted a sister that age and she's perfect! I think we could really get along and have a strong bond.
His mother, I can't even begin to describe. She is a teacher that helps with the little mental kids. How sweet is that? Obviously she loves kids just like me! She's very cool and understanding. I can also tell that she is a good shopper and has great taste! We're a perfect combo with little seester too!:)
Now his dad, he is hilarious. He knows just how to make me blush with me not even around. ;) haha He has taught Caleb very well how to treat a woman. Caleb gets countless great traits from his padre. For example, their determination and braveness. Their hobby: drag racing.
Now Caleb and his racing? Scares me half to death. I'm terrified I will lose him in a wreck. I guess standing on the sideline with mother and seester, I'll learn to enjoy it....eventually. Racing gives him time to be daring and the big bad boy. haha Every guy wants a little edge in their life at some point right? Guess it gives him plenty of thrill and spotlight. I love the energy and support the family gives him and his dad. It really pulls them close together.
I speak very highly of Caleb and his family, but I'm sure they have their faults just as everyone else. I'm not sure what they could be but I really think I will be able to look past them for this guy. :)
Tuesday and today I was lucky enough to spend allll day with him. We share a love for bowling. It gave us plenty of time to get to know one another and is probably the reason we are where we are today. He did absolutely sensational today! His scores were 211, 223, and 186. His total strikes: 23. One of my good friends decided to tell him for every strike he got, he earned a kiss from muah. ;) Let's just say the night ended with a sweet and simple one. His last words were, "22 and counting." haha Gotta love the boy!:)
Well it's been another looong, stressful day. I'm about to hit the hay!
Goodnight my lovesss,
Love: NotSoAverageGirl<3
Monday, February 14, 2011
Dear Mr. Caleb...Please don't disappoint!(:
Sooo, this is a conversation between Caleb and I. This lets you know where we stand and how we feel about one another.(: It starts off with Mr. Caleb:
"So I gotta question, how do u see us right now?"
"What do you think?"
"I asked u first."
"I don't care."
"Well I think I really care about you, and have found something in you I haven't seen in anyone else."
"Like what?"
"A caring person who sees me for me, doesn't care and I think that you care about me, idk you are just everthing I ask for in a girl."
"Oh I see. Well I'm glad you see that in me. I don't know how to explain how I feel exactly. Like I really do like you and care for you but I still don't wanna rush things. I'm not sure how long it's gonna be til I'm ready for a full committed relationship. I can't risk getting hurt again. I still can cry myself to sleep if I think about things too much. I'm afraid to fall cause I know I'll fall hard. It happens every time, I'm left empty handed and broken hearted. I've learned to be very cautious and I'm not really ready to get real close with someone just yet. I have alot going for me right now. Like I said, I so like you and care for you and I would get upset if I no longer had you. It just doesn't feel right without you."
"I don't want to feel like I pressured u into me, if u decide to be with me then ull never see me frown, ur a very special girl."
"I wouldn't let you pressure me. I've learned to let go early on if it's not what you want cause it will just hurt worse later. Honestly, I picture myself with a guy like you and a family like yours. I just constantly wonder if this is what I'm supposed to be doing or who I'm supposed to be with. You know what I mean I'm sure. Like I feel God needs to speak up for me and tell me where to go. I know for a fact you're the perfect kind of guy for me. I like you and I think about us and think I really might be able to love this boy one day. But then again I may think hmmm, I'm not sure he's the one which makes me remember to keep things slow and try not to get too attached. I don't want either one of us to get hurt. You're something new for me. All my exs have been "bad" boys. It's kinda hard for me to grasp my calm and not so wild side so I don't just like take control."
"Sorta, but right now I don't question that stuff, God put you in front of me for a reason, love isn't out of the question, but its to soon to be for sure, it is hard making the switch, but I'm gunna be honest im falling, and its hard not to, your a great girl, my family loves you, and we have similiar friends, its just to many coincidences to not mean something."
"Lol I see where you're coming from. I've thought these things through a million times. My dream has always been to marry my high school sweetheart and I may have a chance. After Sl--- I basically gave up that dream. But maybe God wants me to fulfill that dream after all. Idk. I'll find out in time. Time is the key to everyting. We just can't be too focused on ourselves. We still have the rest of senior year, this summer, college, and a job to begin before actually needing to fall in love."
"True, I guess I just need to slow down and realize what's going on, life is short, and finding a companion who is a best friend isn't easy, somehow I got lucky and found you."
"Haha yeah. Sometimes I think about us and our situation. I feel that we should work towards the best friend relationship each of us has with the opposite sex. Around friends and even alone we shouldn't have to act like a couple. That's what the married years are for right? Don't get me wrong. I love kisses and goofing off is okay every once in a while. But you have your whole adult life for serious couple like stuff. Why waste all the fun and get bored with it now? It'll make that wedding night even more of a surprise turnout. :)"
"I see what you mean, but keeping a spark is also based on small kisses and such, you also don't wanna get bored and risk losing something over not showing affection, but honestly are you trying to say we should just be friends? That's kinda the vibe I'm getting."
"Nooo! That's not it at all dear! I'm just saying we don't have to rush anything. Let our relationship go where it pleases as long as we don't get too serious still in high school."
"Ohhh I see well, its 11, tomorrow is a big day and we have all the time in the world to talk, sweet dreams A-----, sleep tight."
"Sweet dreams sweet prince:)"
Okayy soo that's a very, VERY personal conversation buuuut I feel safe enough with you guys to let you have the everything.
I love you all sooo much!
Peace, love, your..NotSoAverageGirl(:
"So I gotta question, how do u see us right now?"
"What do you think?"
"I asked u first."
"I don't care."
"Well I think I really care about you, and have found something in you I haven't seen in anyone else."
"Like what?"
"A caring person who sees me for me, doesn't care and I think that you care about me, idk you are just everthing I ask for in a girl."
"Oh I see. Well I'm glad you see that in me. I don't know how to explain how I feel exactly. Like I really do like you and care for you but I still don't wanna rush things. I'm not sure how long it's gonna be til I'm ready for a full committed relationship. I can't risk getting hurt again. I still can cry myself to sleep if I think about things too much. I'm afraid to fall cause I know I'll fall hard. It happens every time, I'm left empty handed and broken hearted. I've learned to be very cautious and I'm not really ready to get real close with someone just yet. I have alot going for me right now. Like I said, I so like you and care for you and I would get upset if I no longer had you. It just doesn't feel right without you."
"I don't want to feel like I pressured u into me, if u decide to be with me then ull never see me frown, ur a very special girl."
"I wouldn't let you pressure me. I've learned to let go early on if it's not what you want cause it will just hurt worse later. Honestly, I picture myself with a guy like you and a family like yours. I just constantly wonder if this is what I'm supposed to be doing or who I'm supposed to be with. You know what I mean I'm sure. Like I feel God needs to speak up for me and tell me where to go. I know for a fact you're the perfect kind of guy for me. I like you and I think about us and think I really might be able to love this boy one day. But then again I may think hmmm, I'm not sure he's the one which makes me remember to keep things slow and try not to get too attached. I don't want either one of us to get hurt. You're something new for me. All my exs have been "bad" boys. It's kinda hard for me to grasp my calm and not so wild side so I don't just like take control."
"Sorta, but right now I don't question that stuff, God put you in front of me for a reason, love isn't out of the question, but its to soon to be for sure, it is hard making the switch, but I'm gunna be honest im falling, and its hard not to, your a great girl, my family loves you, and we have similiar friends, its just to many coincidences to not mean something."
"Lol I see where you're coming from. I've thought these things through a million times. My dream has always been to marry my high school sweetheart and I may have a chance. After Sl--- I basically gave up that dream. But maybe God wants me to fulfill that dream after all. Idk. I'll find out in time. Time is the key to everyting. We just can't be too focused on ourselves. We still have the rest of senior year, this summer, college, and a job to begin before actually needing to fall in love."
"True, I guess I just need to slow down and realize what's going on, life is short, and finding a companion who is a best friend isn't easy, somehow I got lucky and found you."
"Haha yeah. Sometimes I think about us and our situation. I feel that we should work towards the best friend relationship each of us has with the opposite sex. Around friends and even alone we shouldn't have to act like a couple. That's what the married years are for right? Don't get me wrong. I love kisses and goofing off is okay every once in a while. But you have your whole adult life for serious couple like stuff. Why waste all the fun and get bored with it now? It'll make that wedding night even more of a surprise turnout. :)"
"I see what you mean, but keeping a spark is also based on small kisses and such, you also don't wanna get bored and risk losing something over not showing affection, but honestly are you trying to say we should just be friends? That's kinda the vibe I'm getting."
"Nooo! That's not it at all dear! I'm just saying we don't have to rush anything. Let our relationship go where it pleases as long as we don't get too serious still in high school."
"Ohhh I see well, its 11, tomorrow is a big day and we have all the time in the world to talk, sweet dreams A-----, sleep tight."
"Sweet dreams sweet prince:)"
Okayy soo that's a very, VERY personal conversation buuuut I feel safe enough with you guys to let you have the everything.
I love you all sooo much!
Peace, love, your..NotSoAverageGirl(:
Oh, Mr. Valentine(:
Happy Valentine's Day guys!!
I hope everyone is having a great day today! Today has been super busy and packed full. First day back to school in five days...that only means lots of homework piled on and lots to catch up with. :( Research paper coming up, speech Friday, tests in other classes, bowling tournaments! OhhMyyGee! Can you say overload?
Sooo, Caleb is taking me out on a date tonight. :D He supposedly has a gift even though I told him not to get anything. Ughhh! Stubborn boys. Anyways, I'm thrilled to actually have a Valentine for once!
Saturday night was an absolute blast! Caleb, my friend, her guy friend, and I all went riding in the jeep. I don't think we stopped laughing and singing and dancing and goofing off the entire time! haha It was absolutely fucking amazing! That is right. Be jealous!;)
By the way, for those of you who haven't seen Easy A, it is a pretty good movie. It kinda does explain high school for you. Buuut, pretty damn sure I wouldn't plaster an A on my shirt. haha
Prom is coming around the corner fast. I can't decide whether I should go or not. It's senior prom but I don't want to have to go through the trouble of finding a date. Dress shopping would be a breeze and quite exciting. I'll have to put more thought into that though.
I believe I did just post in my eighth period class...what does that tell you about the class? We do hardly anything in here, so it's easy-going. I Facebook, Twitter, FML, and Blog the entire time. Gotta love it!:)
Soo, hear me out peeps!
Tooooodles for now(:
Lovee: NotSoAverageGirl
I hope everyone is having a great day today! Today has been super busy and packed full. First day back to school in five days...that only means lots of homework piled on and lots to catch up with. :( Research paper coming up, speech Friday, tests in other classes, bowling tournaments! OhhMyyGee! Can you say overload?
Sooo, Caleb is taking me out on a date tonight. :D He supposedly has a gift even though I told him not to get anything. Ughhh! Stubborn boys. Anyways, I'm thrilled to actually have a Valentine for once!
Saturday night was an absolute blast! Caleb, my friend, her guy friend, and I all went riding in the jeep. I don't think we stopped laughing and singing and dancing and goofing off the entire time! haha It was absolutely fucking amazing! That is right. Be jealous!;)
By the way, for those of you who haven't seen Easy A, it is a pretty good movie. It kinda does explain high school for you. Buuut, pretty damn sure I wouldn't plaster an A on my shirt. haha
Prom is coming around the corner fast. I can't decide whether I should go or not. It's senior prom but I don't want to have to go through the trouble of finding a date. Dress shopping would be a breeze and quite exciting. I'll have to put more thought into that though.
I believe I did just post in my eighth period class...what does that tell you about the class? We do hardly anything in here, so it's easy-going. I Facebook, Twitter, FML, and Blog the entire time. Gotta love it!:)
Soo, hear me out peeps!
Tooooodles for now(:
Lovee: NotSoAverageGirl
Friday, February 11, 2011
Snow Day #3(:
Soo, today is snow day number three this week. Early, early start to the weekend. Ohh yess! But since I'm a smart kid and I'm already in college classes I still have to go to class to give my speech. Seriously? WTF?! Well my day just got ruined. I was supposed to spend all afternoon with Caleb!:( GRRRR. Now, as the nerves start to kick in, I'm sitting here NOT preparing haha. Sounds about right. I would rather goof off on facebook, twitter, read fmls, and blog. :P
Who's ready for graduation?? I am!!! May 10th and 20th just can't get here fast enough. Am I right?
Well, Caleb and I were talking and we decided to go on a no coke diet. He succeeded more than I can say I did. He actually lost 2 pounds. I think I gained? haha By the way, we are not fat people. Just want to get more in shape!(:
Next week will be another short week as well. I get out early Tuesday and Thursday for bowling tournaments. Well that is if we do good on Tuesday. Wish us luckk!:D I'm very nervous because the coach from my future college will be there scouting. That means I must do really good to get the scholarship. :/
And how about Lady Gaga's Born This Way album?? Sorry Gaga, but I'm more in love with Ms. Minaj(:
Dora the Explorer has to be one of the most boring shows in the history of all kid shows. Even Teletubbies has Dora beat! haha My grandma babysits and so I'm forced to leave the TV on Dora. :(
Okay, enough blubbering about random ass stuff!
Love you guysesss!:D
NotSoAverageGirl
Who's ready for graduation?? I am!!! May 10th and 20th just can't get here fast enough. Am I right?
Well, Caleb and I were talking and we decided to go on a no coke diet. He succeeded more than I can say I did. He actually lost 2 pounds. I think I gained? haha By the way, we are not fat people. Just want to get more in shape!(:
Next week will be another short week as well. I get out early Tuesday and Thursday for bowling tournaments. Well that is if we do good on Tuesday. Wish us luckk!:D I'm very nervous because the coach from my future college will be there scouting. That means I must do really good to get the scholarship. :/
And how about Lady Gaga's Born This Way album?? Sorry Gaga, but I'm more in love with Ms. Minaj(:
Dora the Explorer has to be one of the most boring shows in the history of all kid shows. Even Teletubbies has Dora beat! haha My grandma babysits and so I'm forced to leave the TV on Dora. :(
Okay, enough blubbering about random ass stuff!
Love you guysesss!:D
NotSoAverageGirl
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Love: We Can And Will Survive Anything!
My last post explained the great parts of my week. Truth is my weekend did have some all-time lows. My friend lost her mother over the weekend. She didn't just die; she committed suicide. I'm soo sorry for the dear girl. She's very strong. Stronger than I could ever be. Sad thing is, the girl knew about her mother's plan. She knew when her mother left for work, she would never meet face to face on Earth with her again. The girl explained to me that her mother told her that she was tired of suffering and her family having to take care of her. She was a very brave woman and only wanted what was best for everyone. She jumped of the top of her work building and died on impact.
Not only was that the only death in town this weekend. Saturday, the very same day, there was a fatal wreck. Two girls had went to a little town about fifteen miles away. There they picked up three boys, one being very close to me to where he is considered my little brother. The five of the teenagers were riding on some gravel roads. The eldest girl was driving when the road began to get a little muddy. She decided to switch spots with my little brother. He took over the wheel. They were fine for a while until they got going a little too fast. He lost control of the vehicle causing them to flip three times. Unfortunately the girl that had changed spots with him was thrown out of the vehicle and it rolled over on top of her. The other girl inside the vehicle had escaped finally and began to do CPR on her best friend, who eventually died in her arms. The boy driving knows what happened after the night was told to him over. He had lost his memory of the entire night. He woke up not even knowing he had been the driver of the wreck that killed the girl. Thankfully four of the kids made it alive. The girl that passed was 18, a senior at a church in town. She went to school with our class until her sophomore year. She had several close friends that loved her with all their heart. Her father is a great man and has been fighting cancer for a while now. Just last year, the girl that was her best friend was killed in a car accident. This year the same happened to her.
God accepted two wonderful women Saturday. Everyone around here is cooperating the best they can. We all are trying to think the best of it even though it's extremely hard. The best we can do is keep praying and keeping the Lord in mind.
Please stay careful at all times! Enjoy life to the fullest!
Love you guys more than you can ever imagine,
NotSoAverageGirl<3
Not only was that the only death in town this weekend. Saturday, the very same day, there was a fatal wreck. Two girls had went to a little town about fifteen miles away. There they picked up three boys, one being very close to me to where he is considered my little brother. The five of the teenagers were riding on some gravel roads. The eldest girl was driving when the road began to get a little muddy. She decided to switch spots with my little brother. He took over the wheel. They were fine for a while until they got going a little too fast. He lost control of the vehicle causing them to flip three times. Unfortunately the girl that had changed spots with him was thrown out of the vehicle and it rolled over on top of her. The other girl inside the vehicle had escaped finally and began to do CPR on her best friend, who eventually died in her arms. The boy driving knows what happened after the night was told to him over. He had lost his memory of the entire night. He woke up not even knowing he had been the driver of the wreck that killed the girl. Thankfully four of the kids made it alive. The girl that passed was 18, a senior at a church in town. She went to school with our class until her sophomore year. She had several close friends that loved her with all their heart. Her father is a great man and has been fighting cancer for a while now. Just last year, the girl that was her best friend was killed in a car accident. This year the same happened to her.
God accepted two wonderful women Saturday. Everyone around here is cooperating the best they can. We all are trying to think the best of it even though it's extremely hard. The best we can do is keep praying and keeping the Lord in mind.
Please stay careful at all times! Enjoy life to the fullest!
Love you guys more than you can ever imagine,
NotSoAverageGirl<3
Let's play catch up!(:
Okay guys,
So this past week has been absolutely caraaaazy! We've had several ups and downs around here. Last weekend got a super early start. It started around Wednesday night? I had bowling practice that day and bowled a 201!! Woohoo! Then at soccer practice one of my 'friends' decided to crush my foot. haha He didn't mean to but it's still bruised! Ughhh! Oh well. Then I had church and had to sit there the entire time with an elevated foot being iced. The next day I did have school but it wasn't that bad. Made plans with some great friends. :)
After school I got to see my best friend and old school bowl. Then went out to eat with that special boy and another guy friend. My boy and I decided to meet up with my best friend and his. We have successfully got them sorta kinda together? haha We rode around town and some backroads. We even tried playing truth or dare and critter critter. Woooww, umm let's just say didn't go as planned. The night ended up coming to an end WAYY too fast.
The next morning (Friday) I wake up to find out no school supposedly due to a blizzard. Yeah, the district totally guessed the RAIN right. Anyways I enjoyed the day off with my best friends and that boyyy. My girls and I decided to eat Pizza Hut. Epic. Fail. Never again. The service was terrible. It took forever. We all three ran out of our drinks and waited for at least twenty minutes. Eventually, one of us went to the counter to order the rest of our food and let them know we needed drinks. About thirty minutes later we received our cinnamon sticks. Our tip: (Left on a napkin) Checking on ALL your tables wouldn't be such a bad idea. Thanks. haha Hope they took the advice.
The day continued on. We picked up Caleb (all names are changed because it's easier to use a name:) haha) and went to the bowling alley. Bowled a few games and two other guys came to visit too. We all headed over to a house to watch a movie. Great movie!:) We dropped the two guys off and my friend and I hung out for a while. Later, we had to stop by my house to talk to Daddy.
That night we went to eat Mexican with five guys, our soccer coach? and his wife and two kids haha. Strange at first but it was a good time. Us two couples rode around forever it seems like. We ended up at an apartment, just the four of us chilling. This is where things got a bit serious for me and Caleb... Up until this part the two of us had only kissed a little. Nothing major. Not even tongue. Things changed that night. We didn't do anything too far, but he wishes he would have stopped and waited a little longer for what did happened. He is such a sweetheart. I like him. Like really. ALOT. He apologized a thousand times. He's just so amazing!:DD
After I took him home, my friend and I went to Jake's house to play beer pong but things got a little weird and uncomfortable. We headed to her house. By this time it's two a.m.. We make it to her house and do a little 'research' haha as we call it. Then it was nighty night time.
The next day some cleaning her room made things look tremendously better. I felt like it was time to chill at home for a while. We parted for a few hours. She later came to get me so we could babysit. We were at our coach's house with his two kids and four other children. What an experience. Once they returned home we got Caleb and went back to the apartment until curfew.
Next stop: SUPER BOWL SUNDAYYY! Caleb and I had a bowling date. Then the best friend and I played some flag football and the church. After I got home, Caleb picked me up to go to the party with him. We stayed there for first quarter then headed to meet up with the other couple. Once again...the apartment.
Monday, Tuesday=school. Today is Wednesday. I get up to go to school. Two periods and a blizzard comes. Got out at 9:30!:) Woo! And still no school tomorrow! Guess a great time to catch up on some homeworkkk!
Well, that wasn't too terribly long. haha For me. Considering I put every single detail normally, that was the short version!:D
Peace out lovess<33
NotSoAverageGirl
So this past week has been absolutely caraaaazy! We've had several ups and downs around here. Last weekend got a super early start. It started around Wednesday night? I had bowling practice that day and bowled a 201!! Woohoo! Then at soccer practice one of my 'friends' decided to crush my foot. haha He didn't mean to but it's still bruised! Ughhh! Oh well. Then I had church and had to sit there the entire time with an elevated foot being iced. The next day I did have school but it wasn't that bad. Made plans with some great friends. :)
After school I got to see my best friend and old school bowl. Then went out to eat with that special boy and another guy friend. My boy and I decided to meet up with my best friend and his. We have successfully got them sorta kinda together? haha We rode around town and some backroads. We even tried playing truth or dare and critter critter. Woooww, umm let's just say didn't go as planned. The night ended up coming to an end WAYY too fast.
The next morning (Friday) I wake up to find out no school supposedly due to a blizzard. Yeah, the district totally guessed the RAIN right. Anyways I enjoyed the day off with my best friends and that boyyy. My girls and I decided to eat Pizza Hut. Epic. Fail. Never again. The service was terrible. It took forever. We all three ran out of our drinks and waited for at least twenty minutes. Eventually, one of us went to the counter to order the rest of our food and let them know we needed drinks. About thirty minutes later we received our cinnamon sticks. Our tip: (Left on a napkin) Checking on ALL your tables wouldn't be such a bad idea. Thanks. haha Hope they took the advice.
The day continued on. We picked up Caleb (all names are changed because it's easier to use a name:) haha) and went to the bowling alley. Bowled a few games and two other guys came to visit too. We all headed over to a house to watch a movie. Great movie!:) We dropped the two guys off and my friend and I hung out for a while. Later, we had to stop by my house to talk to Daddy.
That night we went to eat Mexican with five guys, our soccer coach? and his wife and two kids haha. Strange at first but it was a good time. Us two couples rode around forever it seems like. We ended up at an apartment, just the four of us chilling. This is where things got a bit serious for me and Caleb... Up until this part the two of us had only kissed a little. Nothing major. Not even tongue. Things changed that night. We didn't do anything too far, but he wishes he would have stopped and waited a little longer for what did happened. He is such a sweetheart. I like him. Like really. ALOT. He apologized a thousand times. He's just so amazing!:DD
After I took him home, my friend and I went to Jake's house to play beer pong but things got a little weird and uncomfortable. We headed to her house. By this time it's two a.m.. We make it to her house and do a little 'research' haha as we call it. Then it was nighty night time.
The next day some cleaning her room made things look tremendously better. I felt like it was time to chill at home for a while. We parted for a few hours. She later came to get me so we could babysit. We were at our coach's house with his two kids and four other children. What an experience. Once they returned home we got Caleb and went back to the apartment until curfew.
Next stop: SUPER BOWL SUNDAYYY! Caleb and I had a bowling date. Then the best friend and I played some flag football and the church. After I got home, Caleb picked me up to go to the party with him. We stayed there for first quarter then headed to meet up with the other couple. Once again...the apartment.
Monday, Tuesday=school. Today is Wednesday. I get up to go to school. Two periods and a blizzard comes. Got out at 9:30!:) Woo! And still no school tomorrow! Guess a great time to catch up on some homeworkkk!
Well, that wasn't too terribly long. haha For me. Considering I put every single detail normally, that was the short version!:D
Peace out lovess<33
NotSoAverageGirl
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
My first entry!(:
Hey guys,
So I'm new at this and I'm just experimenting a bit. I don't want to freak all of you out by jumping straight into my crazy, hectic life, buuut it seems as if I don't really have anything else to turn to. I'll start off with all the basics till they are all covered.
Well everything starts off from the time I was born. I was born to a teen mother. She was 19, but it was still a hard thing to do. I lived with my mom and dad from the time I was born until around age 3 when they divorced. My mom eventually met another guy and married him. They were together for a total of 8 years. Out of their relationship I received my beloved brother, Noah, and wonderful sister, Kara. The summer they split, I remember moving in and out of two houses 26 times. It was definitely the worst summer...EVER! While they were together, we had very challenging times. The summer after third grade, our kitchen caught fire. Luckily, my stepdad was a carpenter; therefore, it was an easy fix. However, he couldn't repair the house when it burned completely the night before fourth grade year started. We lost everything including my best friend: my dog. My mom soon met another guy. I warned her from the moment I viewed him that he was bad news. She didn't listen. She married him and ended up miserable. Here recently she met another guy that is a pretty great man. There's just one little nitch...he's a registered sex offender! Yeah, surprising I know. She went through a rough time. She lost custody of all three of us kids, but she is now happily married to him. The good thing about her kids is that we all love her and know she loves each of us. She could possibly be considered one of my best friends.
Life only became more difficult when I moved up to middle school in the 5th grade. I started having to change classes, using a locker, making more friends, and eventually dealing with...boys. Blahhh!:/ The whole 5th grade my best friend and I constantly fought. Not the best memory at all. Sixth grade got a little better. I gained my best friend back, but the classes got harder. But the beast I am, still rocked it out to the top!
Seventh grade only brought more headaches. I became...'girly' as me and my friends called it. Worst time of my life. I also got my first boyfriend!! :D Happy right? Umm, No! His excuse was "you're ugly and I don't like you like I thought I did". Heartbreaking, I know. Too bad he was the easiest to get over! He sent this wave through me that completely changed my mind about boys. Talking to boys, especially in school, was the hardest thing for me. I began to blossom out at the end of the school year when my mom dated the dad of the popular guy in my class. I looked at it in a good way thinking that I might fit in with that crowd a little better. Well, it worked that way for a while, then it was a complete, epic fail. The summer after seventh grade, I met this guy at a summer camp. I really liked him and broke through my shell to tell him how I felt. It worked...for a while. Until I broke up with him one day. Sometimes I think I'm the reason he is now gay. Ha! Oh well. He's a great guy still!:)
I still have loads to talk about but I must hit the books, shower, and, my favorite, sleep! I'll share more about my family, friends, self and most of all high school and boys at a later timee! I'm keeping everyone in my prayers.
Love, lovee:
the NotSoAverageGirl(:
So I'm new at this and I'm just experimenting a bit. I don't want to freak all of you out by jumping straight into my crazy, hectic life, buuut it seems as if I don't really have anything else to turn to. I'll start off with all the basics till they are all covered.
Well everything starts off from the time I was born. I was born to a teen mother. She was 19, but it was still a hard thing to do. I lived with my mom and dad from the time I was born until around age 3 when they divorced. My mom eventually met another guy and married him. They were together for a total of 8 years. Out of their relationship I received my beloved brother, Noah, and wonderful sister, Kara. The summer they split, I remember moving in and out of two houses 26 times. It was definitely the worst summer...EVER! While they were together, we had very challenging times. The summer after third grade, our kitchen caught fire. Luckily, my stepdad was a carpenter; therefore, it was an easy fix. However, he couldn't repair the house when it burned completely the night before fourth grade year started. We lost everything including my best friend: my dog. My mom soon met another guy. I warned her from the moment I viewed him that he was bad news. She didn't listen. She married him and ended up miserable. Here recently she met another guy that is a pretty great man. There's just one little nitch...he's a registered sex offender! Yeah, surprising I know. She went through a rough time. She lost custody of all three of us kids, but she is now happily married to him. The good thing about her kids is that we all love her and know she loves each of us. She could possibly be considered one of my best friends.
Life only became more difficult when I moved up to middle school in the 5th grade. I started having to change classes, using a locker, making more friends, and eventually dealing with...boys. Blahhh!:/ The whole 5th grade my best friend and I constantly fought. Not the best memory at all. Sixth grade got a little better. I gained my best friend back, but the classes got harder. But the beast I am, still rocked it out to the top!
Seventh grade only brought more headaches. I became...'girly' as me and my friends called it. Worst time of my life. I also got my first boyfriend!! :D Happy right? Umm, No! His excuse was "you're ugly and I don't like you like I thought I did". Heartbreaking, I know. Too bad he was the easiest to get over! He sent this wave through me that completely changed my mind about boys. Talking to boys, especially in school, was the hardest thing for me. I began to blossom out at the end of the school year when my mom dated the dad of the popular guy in my class. I looked at it in a good way thinking that I might fit in with that crowd a little better. Well, it worked that way for a while, then it was a complete, epic fail. The summer after seventh grade, I met this guy at a summer camp. I really liked him and broke through my shell to tell him how I felt. It worked...for a while. Until I broke up with him one day. Sometimes I think I'm the reason he is now gay. Ha! Oh well. He's a great guy still!:)
I still have loads to talk about but I must hit the books, shower, and, my favorite, sleep! I'll share more about my family, friends, self and most of all high school and boys at a later timee! I'm keeping everyone in my prayers.
Love, lovee:
the NotSoAverageGirl(:
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