I love you to infinity and beyond!(:

Well hello my dear friends!
To start off I want to say I'm terribly sorry I haven't been posting lately at all. I believe it has been forever!:(
I've been pretty darn busy. Between school, college, physical therapy, family, friends, and the boyfriend, I don't get much personal time.
School: let's see. Tons and tons of tests!! Finals and AP exams...ugh!!
College: scholarships, roommates, dorms, important dates, summer classes. Just loads of stress!!
Physical therapy: As I told yall, I got hurt playing soccer. I bruised the cartilage in my knee, tore my maniscus, and completely destroyed my ACL which all means...SURGERY. Nothing fun. I had my surgery April 8th. Doctor said I should hopefully be walking 6 weeks from the surgery. What is exactly 6 weeks from the surgery? GRADUATION!!! I better be walking on my own without the crutches by then or I am going to be pyiiiiiisssssed! So for now I'm just exercising and praying that I can walk soon. It's been three weeks tomorrow. Three weeks to go!
Family: Well I've made a trip to my aunt's in Missouri. Got this new handy laptop for college:) Got my iPod set up! Woohoo! This weekend I have a supper with my family and uncle that will be moved to Texas. May be the last time I ever get to see him:''( I'm super sad about that!
Friends: Well what can I say? We are teenagers trying to survive high school. Some friends are true friends. Some friends are the 'temporary' friends(the ones that are two-faced). With all the stress we're all about to go crazy, but we are holding on as tight as we can.
Boyfriend: Boyfriend? Yes, you heard me right. BOYFRIEND!!!:D Remember that 21 year old that I went on a date with? Yeah, well that would be the love of my life!:) He asked me to make it official on prom night! He is absolutley the greatest guy I know! Lord, I could go on and on about him but I'll make it as short and sweet as possible. He has promised to marry me!:) Yes! That serious! We've already....kinda had sex as well lol. Last Saturday. I plan to stay with him tomorrow night and possibly even Saturday! Tomorrow we are going to my family's to pick our baby, a puppy pit bull. We've named him Ciroc!:) Rock for short.
Anywho, it is already 9:30 and I am exhausted. I've been sick as can be all week:( I think I'm about to head to dreamland:)
9 days left for SENIORSS!!:))))
Graduation is right around the corner!!
Love you my loveliesss!
NotSoAverageGirl(:

Omyggg!

Okay, okay. Date with this 21 year old boyy--I am nervous as heck!! :/ Wish me luck guyss!
lovelove:
NotSoAverageGirl(:

Oh my Lawd uh mussy!(:

So this new guy. 21. Likes me? Ahh! Say whaaaat?! He's veeeery sweet, cute, and knows just how to make me smile. (: Annnd his mother was my English teacher and bowling coach and we love each other so she approves! What would my father say? Umm, no clue! I guess we'll see on a later date.
And prom is Friday!! Well I had the choice between the dance or Kenny Chesney. Yeah, my knee may have messed both up. :( I have an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon Wednesday and more than likely surgery. :/ I'm soo scared of what's coming up in the next few days! I'm just ready to be better alreadyyy!! Grr.
Anywho I'll post more later dearies!
lovelove<3
NotSoAverageGirl(:

Summary of my life...

Oh shit.

At least I'm not in Japan...

Well my soccer career, you might say, went out the window Thursday night. I now have a tore or stretched ligament in my knee. I have to wear a mobilizer and I'm on crutches. I tried to take a step after it happened and one of the girls started laughing and said, "You look like a retarded kid trying to walk!" Just wonderful. I can't put any pressure on my leg otherwise the lower and upper parts of my knee push past one another causing it to wobble and I fall. It's swollen to the point that it's three or four times the size of my other knee. I can't even describe the pain I'm in. :'( And not only does my knee hurt but the muscles in my leg hurts from using them more than normal. Let's just say I will have one toned right leg when I'm healed! My arms are also killing from the crutches. :( I guess you could say my entire body aches.
Anyways....if I don't post as much as I thought over Spring Break, I'm terribly sorry. It's cause i'm on bed rest and can barely get out of bed.
I'll post again soon hopefully!
Iloveyou guyss!
<3 NotSoAverageGirl

Okay, to all these people that like to give me the 'go to hell' look...FUCK you. I'm not dealing with the shit. I guess it's a good thing you were the easiest to get over. I'm tired of the jerkness.
He thinks he can delete me on Facebook and ignore my texts? Well okay. Honey, two can play this game. Pretty sure the entire family including you are blocked from my everything. I don't have you number and I'm completely done. Just so you know, english is the worst part of my day and you just made college even more desirable for me. Some 'brudder' you are asshole.
And I'm tired of my 'friends' saying they won't take sides between their friends yet when I talk to them about him they take up for his dumbass. Yeah some 'friend'.
I just love the way Caleb's treating me, especially after how I let him read this blog that was mostly ALL about him including my deepest feeling. I swear if he runs his mouth to anyone about this, I will be one unhappy lady. And running your mouth to that 'friend' of mine about me every single day? Oh hell no. You're just digging your grave hole bigger and bigger little boy. You may be bigger than me but I know you're a little chicken and I could personally whoop you with my pinky. You're headed down the wrong street buddy boy.

On the bright side...2 more days of school then it's spring break! This means blogging every day for a week!:)
Only 33 days left of high school tooooo!:D
I'm soooo ready to graduate it's not even funny.
Now to my loves who read my blog...I'm terribly sorry about all that bullshit jibberish. I just had to calm my nerves by venting. Remember I only vent to you cause I know you can take it:) I hope those noted read it and realize what they sparked in me.
But anyways before I get carried away againnn:)
I love you guys oh so much!
<3, peace, NotSoAverageGirl

I wubb youu!(:

Okay, so life can be a complete bitch! If anyone would know, it would be this girl! So I break up with Caleb right? Yeahhh...about that.
Let's see..
1. I didn't feel much of an attraction anymore :(
2. He was too sweet
3. He deserves better
4. I felt I couldn't give him my all
5. I'm still totally and completely in love with my ex
And last night I stayed with my ex. Had to take a chance and sneak around the family to get there but it was worth it all the way. Took one of those long showers with the boy, play fought in the dark, and ended up entangled a few times. ;) Gahh, there's no explaining how much I missed this boy!
Now, don't think life is perfect with the fairytale ending, because of course, it's not. I still have Caleb to deal with. I never intended to hurt him. I just get really frustrated when people show they're upset because of me, right in front of me. It makes me think they want me to feel bad. Fuck that shit. It pisses me off. Caleb is a sweetheart and all but I was just fed up with everything being about me. I don't like all the spotlight dear;)
Anywhooo, we fought this morning. Told him I fucked my ex twice. Mean but hey, at least I'm honest. I warned him I wasn't good for him. I guess we worked things out now though. Brudder and sister? Something like that.
I definitely had a big case of PMS--pissed at men syndrome--yesterday/today. Sorry, I couldn't help being a bitch. I hope he doesn't hate me? lol
Only four school days then it's spring breakkk!
Then, then Prommm:)
And finally...35 days left for SENIORSSS! May 20th is slowly creeping here!:DD
OH! The band made all ones last night!!! I had the best flute solo the judges heard all day!:D Sweepstakes babyyyyyyyy!
Toodles lovelies!
<3 NotSoAverageGirl